Get Behind Me
It never ceases to amaze me how my life is full of unintentional irony. (Yes, I see the irony in having unintentional irony...) Anyways, I almost have a full month of grad school completed, and the lessons I have learned in this month carry over into far more than the classroom.
Classes are still going amazingly well. I've been very good at maintaining the readings and working ahead. We had the MA Theology Colloquium last night, and it went fantastic. My aspirations for acquiring my phD in exegetical/hermeneutical studies were confirmed last night after some talks with some professors. These people really have faith in me, and I know this what God has intended for me. So every day, I use intimidation as my motivator and pray that God will continue to grant me the motivation and determination I need.
I found out today it is going to be 6-8 months before I can expect my colitis to go into remission again. So I have to be especially careful in pacing myself. I consider this a test from God, let's see if I can pass this one. In 2 weeks, I go to the hospital for a same day procedure. If all goes well, I will be able to be weaned from the steroids in about 3 weeks. If there are complications, I am looking at another 3-4 months of the steroids. However, I will be on the Colazel the rest of my life, but if I can get this bastard managed, I'll do whatever I have to.
God grants us signs sometimes that we might not like to see at first, but in the end we have to realize He has a greater purpose for us. This is the hardest lesson I have learned thus far. In my last post, I commented on the relationship I was in, and every night I prayed that God would deliver some kind of sign to let me know one way or the other. At first, I didn't like the sign He gave me at all. In fact, I was going to deny the grace He had poured out to me. That's Ash for you...ask for an answer to a prayer and then be to stubborn to listen to it. However, I relented...and let me say I am so glad I did. I have gained something so wonderful in the process at the cost of losing something that wasn't really worth it to begin with.
That's not to say I'm not still reeling from hurt. There is nothing quite like thinking you know someone, only to realize you cared about a facade, a total stranger. However, there is nothing quite like gaining a friend in the process, and that is exactly what happened. I'm not going into the details because that is for nobody to know, but let's say everything is going to work out for the best.
For those of you who know my SN, you should know its more than just that. It's become my whole mantra. Unhealthy people, relationships, Satan, etc...you can all get behind me.
Classes are still going amazingly well. I've been very good at maintaining the readings and working ahead. We had the MA Theology Colloquium last night, and it went fantastic. My aspirations for acquiring my phD in exegetical/hermeneutical studies were confirmed last night after some talks with some professors. These people really have faith in me, and I know this what God has intended for me. So every day, I use intimidation as my motivator and pray that God will continue to grant me the motivation and determination I need.
I found out today it is going to be 6-8 months before I can expect my colitis to go into remission again. So I have to be especially careful in pacing myself. I consider this a test from God, let's see if I can pass this one. In 2 weeks, I go to the hospital for a same day procedure. If all goes well, I will be able to be weaned from the steroids in about 3 weeks. If there are complications, I am looking at another 3-4 months of the steroids. However, I will be on the Colazel the rest of my life, but if I can get this bastard managed, I'll do whatever I have to.
God grants us signs sometimes that we might not like to see at first, but in the end we have to realize He has a greater purpose for us. This is the hardest lesson I have learned thus far. In my last post, I commented on the relationship I was in, and every night I prayed that God would deliver some kind of sign to let me know one way or the other. At first, I didn't like the sign He gave me at all. In fact, I was going to deny the grace He had poured out to me. That's Ash for you...ask for an answer to a prayer and then be to stubborn to listen to it. However, I relented...and let me say I am so glad I did. I have gained something so wonderful in the process at the cost of losing something that wasn't really worth it to begin with.
That's not to say I'm not still reeling from hurt. There is nothing quite like thinking you know someone, only to realize you cared about a facade, a total stranger. However, there is nothing quite like gaining a friend in the process, and that is exactly what happened. I'm not going into the details because that is for nobody to know, but let's say everything is going to work out for the best.
For those of you who know my SN, you should know its more than just that. It's become my whole mantra. Unhealthy people, relationships, Satan, etc...you can all get behind me.
You got a reaction
You got a reaction didn't, you?
You took a white orchid
You took a white orchid turned it blue
Something better than nothing
Something better than nothing, it's giving up
We all need to do something
Try keep the truth from showing up
How dare you
How old are you now, anyway?
How dare you
How old are you now, anyway?
You're given a flower
But I guess there's just no pleasing you
Your lips tastes sour
But you think that it's just me teasing you
You got a reaction
You got a reaction, didn't you?
You took a white orchid
You took a white orchid turned it blue
Get behind me
Get behind me now, anyway
Get behind me
Get behind me now, anyway
You got a reaction
You got a reaction, didn't you?
You took a white orchid
You took a white orchid turned it blue
posted by Ash at 3:28:00 PM
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